What could you do more of?
I need to spend more time fasting and praying. I know it’s something I have kind of have been thinking of doing but have put to the side. Fasting and praying is one of the best ways to feed your mind and soul of God’s grace. It gives you clarity and absolute peace. It’s like entering in the most holy place with the Creator of the universe. It’s personal and it’s time you spend with just you and God. It’s so powerful and I need to do that more.
I love You, Lord
Oh, Your mercy never fails me
All my days, I've been held in Your hands
From the moment that I wake up
Until I lay my head
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God
And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God
I love Your voice
You have led me through the fire
And in darkest night You are close like no other
I've known You as a Father
I've known You as a Friend
And I have lived in the goodness of God, yeah
And all my life You have been faithful, oh
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God, yeah
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me, oh-oh
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
Your goodness is running after, it's running after me
With my life laid down, I'm surrendered now
I give You everything
'Cause Your goodness is running after, it keeps running after me
And all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
I'm gonna sing, I'm gonna sing
Oh, 'cause
'Cause all my life You have been faithful
And all my life You have been so, so good
With every breath that I am able
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
Oh, I'm gonna sing of the goodness of God
How do you celebrate holidays?
We usually celebrate the holidays by going all out. For Christmas I will say we start the outside decorations in the last week of September or first week of October. It’s due mainly because it starts to get cold by me very fast. Some times the fall weather can last longer but sometimes winter just blasts in. So for us starting the decorations especially hanging of lights and stuff is just better earlier. We love to making the house all colorful and filled with Christmas cheer. I know most think it’s silly but for me especially Christmas is very magical. I know it’s not the actual date of Jesus Christ birth but celebrating like it’s His birthday makes it so much more special.
How do you relax?
I spend each night talking to God. It helps me feel better and unburdened. I can tell Him anything, give him my worries and not be afraid. I don’t feel like I have to pretend to be someone I’m not. I don’t feel like I have to censor myself. I can just be me in front of him and he still loves me. The most relaxing thing you can find, is a place that you find peace in. My peace is found talking to God. I find that is the only time I am truly relaxed and can be my complete self. This is why it’s the last thing I do before I go to bed. I like to fall asleep feeling at peace.
Talking to a young boy I found he was cold. Maybe smart but not very nice. Very dismissive but I can blame myself. I tend to talk too much and share too much of myself when talking to people. It’s a very big flaw I know and I am working at it. I do find that sometimes being that way helps me to not hide who I am. I am not ashamed of being myself but I do forget others don’t like talking to other people and feel it might waste their time. So in that sense I was wrong to have wasted his time. I guess we all try to think we are speaking to people but we aren’t. In the digital age we are nothing more than avatars exchanging bits of information. So in that aspect you really never actually speak to the person like if you were to speak to them in real life. It was an interesting experience and it’s not his fault, it’s no one’s fault. We have become so separated yet are so close just by the tap of the screen but still worlds away from one another. Another day still grateful for another lesson learned.
Are you holding a grudge? About?
I am trying to not hold onto any grudges. It’s toxic for my soul. With that said I do have some unresolved feelings about myself and others. But hopefully after time goes on those feelings will disappear also.
Song by: Chester See
Forgive me
I may have said things
That aren’t exactly
The way that I feel
I told you I’d be strong
I said that I’d moved on
But it doesn’t take long
To realize
That I’m not over you
But if there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I know it sounds crazy
But I need you to trust me
If it’s how it must be
Then I’ll fade away
When it finally feels true
Then do what you have to
‘Cause I’ll never blame you
For not choosing me
But I’m not over you
But If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
Down the road someone will ask me if I know you
I’ll pause for a moment I’ll smile and say that I used… to
If there is somebody that makes you feel happy
Tends to your heart in the ways I’d been lacking
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way
That I feel is no longer your burden
If there is someone that can make you feel perfect
Then who am I who am I to stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
To stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way…
I won’t stand in your way
I won’t stand in your way
What does your ideal home look like?
My ideal home looks like one that has a lot of bedrooms. Many windows so the sunlight can always shine inside the every room in the house. One that has a big kitchen with lots of cabinet space and counter space. One with a yard or land, to plant flowers and have a little garden. One more thing that is a must, a big tub for me to be able to soak in, no little showers or tubs.
What motivates you?
God is what motivates me. He has given me so much. He has never turned His back on me. He has brought me out of the darkness. He is what gives me strength to get up each and every single day. He has given me clarity. He has helped me to focus. He is my best friend. He is what motivates me.
Create an emergency preparedness plan.
I have always been a prepper extra waters and non perishable food. Candles, batteries, matches, first aid kit on and on.
I have been doing it for a while now. It’s funny during Sandy when we lost power for over 2 weeks it was because of my prepping that led us to not need anything from the outside.
I do think every person should have sort of plan for any emergency. Power outage you should have a plan. Civil war breaks out you should have a plan of escape.
I am not saying that is what I want but one must be prepared for the worse. It’s like buying insurance for a car or house. You may never use the full amount or at all. But you will be happy you have it if you’re house burns down or if you car is completely destroyed.
Making plans for an emergency is always smart. I suggest everyone have a plan. Where to go, a bag prepared to leave with, emergency supplies it’s just responsible especially when you have family that depend on you.
Emma the Mizfit 