Emma the Mizfit

Scars are like sunsets. Both tell a story and each one is completely unique. ERG

Came to a certain realization sometimes the only way to move forward is to completely let go of the one thing you thought meant the most to you. It doesn’t makes it any less meaningful to you. But there comes a time when you need to just move on and fight for something that is worthy of your fight. I have stayed too long in one spot and this weekend I realized I can no longer stay there. It’s extremely painful and sad but it’s part of the journey we take in life. We all must move forward. It’s the only way to go, staying in one place for too long only leads to disappointment in those you once loved. Leading to expectations that at the very end, you will just be disappointed by. The people you once thought of as friends and family just become strangers. You no longer understand them and they no longer understand you. You try to see the silver lining in these relationships but the truth is the time has come to let them go. They no longer have the same meaning to you as they once did. The course has been set and you must learn to walk into the sunshine without them. We are afraid of change or at least I think most of us are. But more than being afraid of change, we are more afraid to let go of something we know we love. We want to hold on to it, hoping it will change, hoping it will come back, the fire will burn again. The truth is the flame died and we need to accept that and let it go. My weekend was spent playing with friends. I planned my whole weekend to help and be there for them. It was fun and reminded of some of the best times I had with them. But it also made me face one thing I have just completely ignored, it’s over. The fire that once burned no longer consumes me. I have tried to rekindle it, try to make it burn again, in the end the fire just isn’t there. I truly love them more than words can ever say and it breaks my heart to walk away. But just like in life everything has a season, and the season of starting over and letting go is now. They will never know the impact each one played in my life. But I will be forever grateful to them. It is through tears and heartbreak that I hope this new journey begins. I wish it was easy to say goodbye. Goodbyes are always hard, sometimes it’s better to just slowly walk away. Hoping the memories of the time you share with them lasts forever.

open.spotify.com/show/0pzhRNhGn5alXJvmHAFucm

Today I am in the middle of doing my usual routine, which does include some time playing in a certain game. For reasons I won’t get into it, the game is filled with lots of egos. The game has become so toxic, it kind of reminds me why I don’t go on Twitter. It’s filled with people calling other ppl names, and people just angry. I myself can say I get extremely passionate and can definitely lose control and call someone an a**hole. Honestly it’s from anger and frustration of how crappy the kingdom has become. One clan rules the kingdom with no honor. It’s not enough to own the map for them, it’s about pushing it in everyone’s face “how great they are.”Which leads me to my point. Sometimes we hear the annoying sounds of the loud idiots and forget to take control of ourselves. We become angry or passionate that we want our voice to be heard at any cost. But the truth is we lose sight of whom we are truly hurting. These people that cuss you out or speak about how great they are, it’s their own insecurities. To them the game is a way for them to show how amazing they are. Something they must lack in real life. But we need to remember everyone is fighting a battle and that guy who is thinking he is so great, thinks he is so strong, is just weak. Being great in a game is nice but being honorable and kind to others, shows that you are truly better than them. So we need to remember the only ones we hurt by engaging in their stupidity is us, by lowering ourselves to their level. Instead of being like them, be a better version of yourself. Some one who is kind and just turns and walks away saying “you know what today I will not let you ruin anything for me.” That is the person I want to be. That is the person we should all strive to be. Be the change you want to see in the world. It won’t be easy but you can be the start. Find peace today in knowing that no matter how crappy ppl are you still woke up this morning. Be the reason someone smiles today.

open.spotify.com/episode/309gY1U5yGA2d2MPCxftWY

People think they know you, they think of you as a loser. It is those people you tune out. They will never support you. Those are the ones that would never like to see you rise. It is through their own insecurities they feel they are above you. It is inside of you to find the strength to rise up. It is inside you to find the courage to keep moving forward no matter how many times you fail. It is inside you to never give up and never give them the pleasure of defeat. You aren’t fighting to prove anything to them, but proving to yourself that you can do what you set out to accomplish. Haters will always hate, with kindness you will look back at them and smile. You are not like them. You are strong enough to know you don’t need to hate anyone. You don’t need to be envious of anyone. You are worthy all alone and don’t need the approval of anyone to be strong.


Woke up this morning to the beautiful sound of the rain. It’s remarkable the sound it makes as it hits the pavement. It’s like hearing musical notes that God has made with the drops of rain. Each day I am thankful for waking up. The day might be long, the day might be good or bad but I am grateful regardless. Be grateful for each moment even during the bad times. Each moment is a lesson, each moment you will never get back, so even if it’s a rainy day enjoy it.

May is Mental Health Awareness Month. If you need help or know someone that needs help, please seek it. “You are not alone.”

Long day doing so many different things. My head gets filled with so much s**t. I tend to over think everything and I try so hard to make things perfectly right. Go for long walks in the park to clear my head. Walking and working out helps me to try and stop the insanity in my head. As I lay here wondering why the world is so chaotic I am just grateful to have fought through another day. I was once told by an old friend you can never look back, learn from your past but don’t look back. So much of our time is spent thinking “what could have been” or “what would have changed if I had just done this”. But as I sit in the dark I know that it’s not just destiny, though that might play a part. It’s our choices that have led us down this path. One of the most important things I have recently learned is every story has two sides. You will always be the villain in someone’s story. Those two things have made me see ownership is truly the most freeing of anything. When you own your flaws, your past, your mistakes, or even your choices good or bad you grow. The only way to truly become a better person is to keep growing and striving to be a better person. Once you realize you are responsible for your own decisions, your own choices no matter what life throws at you. You can grow stronger by embracing it all and wearing it like armor. The only one that has the power to defeat you is yourself. So yeah they are random thoughts but I just wanted to share them. Have a beautiful night. Emma