Feelings ?!?
What do you say to a person that is your friend that you may have feelings for them? You don’t want to ruin what you have but you can feel all these things you never knew you felt. Stupid I know, that’s what I keep saying. Don’t fall into old patterns. And it’s stupid because he is not like any other person I have ever met. Is it stupid? Am I crazy? To feel like I genuinely like them. I don’t know maybe I am stupid and completely reckless with my heart. But it’s like when we speak, even speaking of him being with another person, my heart feels something. It’s dumb I know. I just don’t know anymore. He makes me question everything. He makes me feel like I can achieve my goals. I can find my own happiness and it just feels like he takes joy in me becoming a better person. I know I shouldn’t even entertain the ideas, if I do it will just mess up our friendship. I love our friendship I don’t want to ruin that I want to be honest and just love him. Maybe just being his friend is enough love and not expecting anything back. I am stupid I know but I do know I don’t want us to not be friends. He is extremely important to me and I can’t lose him. Not over emotions that I am sure he doesn’t have. So I will stay positive and allow time to do it’s thing. Just working on myself. Yes I am sharing my own personal crazy thoughts. I hope the new day brings you much love and a beautiful day. Remember be the reason smiles today. ~Emma~
Words to live by
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Pretending to be okay
Even when people think you are the happiest doesn’t hide the tears in your heart. Even with all the smiles we try to pretend everything is okay, even if we feel like we can’t go on. They say time heals all wounds but it’s hard to believe when your chest is bleeding on the floor. It’s hard to truly believe anyone will ever be by your side, when you look and don’t see a soul around you. I know how hard it is to stay positive and on my down days that is how I feel. That is how I feel at this moment. Completely and utterly useless, it’s hard to pretend to be fine when you feel that way. It’s hard to talk, it’s hard to think, it’s hard to explain, it’s hard to exist. But we cannot give up because the enemy wins. At the end of the day, we need to keep fighting to stay calm and in the light. It is through the light we find a little bit of peace. ~Emma~
Just enjoying the moment
There aren’t many movies that just bring joy when I get into a bad mood. There are some movies that I have depending on the mood, that just brighten my day. One of those movies that does make me happy just watching it every single time is Grease. The music, the singing, the dancing and just the story as silly as the movie might be, it is so much fun to watch. I know in today’s standards with all the “problematic” things some people will easily point out. But for me every single time I watch it, it just brings a huge smile to my face. That is what the movies are supposed to do. Take you out of your mind for a moment and enjoy something that might be silly but is absolutely beautiful to watch. ~Emma~
Words to live by
Some people will always be weak and cowards. Stay away from those kind of people. They only cause pain and heartache. They will never think of anyone first but themselves. So save your self the trouble and never allow those people back in after they have left. They aren’t worth your time.
Start the new year letting go of the past and welcoming the future.
Have a wonderful New Year’s Eve stay safe 🥂
Emma the Mizfit 