What sacrifices have you made in life?
The choice to have the opportunity of having kids. I chose to not have any kids because I didn’t want to pass my genes to a child. It was one of the most heartbreaking choices I have ever made.
Are you a leader or a follower?
Leader
What’s one small improvement you can make in your life?
Eat healthier.
Share a story about someone who had a positive impact on your life.
My mother was poor growing up but still loved her life. She looks back at all of it as a magical memory. Which has taught me that being poor or being rich doesn’t make life magical or beautiful. Finding time to spend with your family the memories you make with them have shaped how I view life. I am extremely lucky I get to have those close to me and make memories each days with them. It is truly impacted how I view worth in life. I would rather spend dinner night chatting with my sister at not the most fancy restaurant yet being together makes each moment the greatest.
Freedom
What does freedom mean to you?
Working for yourself and being successful at it, that is true freedom.
Happy Mother’s Day
There are many things that be grateful for. On Friday I spoke about not knowing the love of man or knowing how to love in a relationship with a man. With that all said my mom is a superhero. My mother has shown me unconditional love. She has shown me sacrifice, she has taught me the unconditional love that only a mother can give. She has shown me that no matter how much I am wrong or mess up, she will always love me. She has shown me what it is to give your heart and never get what you give in return. A mother’s love is unlike any other love. It is unchanging, it is stronger than anything in life. A mother is one that is willing to give everything to her child and only wants the best for her child. My mother is the best example of what a mom truly is. Though she might disagree with a lot of my life choices, she has always supported me. Mom, I might not say it enough but you are truly an inspiration and I hope I can be half of the amazing woman you are. You are my superhero and you are my rock. Words can never express how much I love you and how much you are appreciated. Always ~Emma~
Happy Mother’s Day to all you amazing Mom’s out there. I hope you have a beautiful blessed day.
Changing my mood
I wish I woke up in a better mood but I am not in a good mood. Unfortunately my mood has been sour but I am trying to change that. Spending some time listening to music, meditate and going to spend my day praying to God. It is through that I will get into a better mood. So I hope your day is blessed with lots of good positive thoughts. ~Emma~
Disagree with most
What public figure do you disagree with the most?
I disagree with both sides of each political party that have decided to not put America first. Our country is in need, our people are in need, and it seems they only care about power. So whomever is against the American people succeeding are the ones I disagree with the most.
What is your career plan?
To succeed in everything I do no matter how long it takes.
I am the chaos and the chaos is me….
How does one ever truly learn to treat others than not by the people around them? How can a girl learn how a man is to treat her if the men around her weren’t strong or a good example? How can she learn what love looks like when she doesn’t know? Questions I have asked myself a dozen times. I have never truly found love or been loved by a man because I don’t know what that feels like. Though I might not have the love of a father that showed me how to love and be loved, my mother showed me a different kind of love. It’s weird because my father has always provided for us but has never truly been there, if that makes any sense. I guess it’s why I have never truly found a man to love me. It’s because I have never seen a strong relationship around me. With that said my mother has shown me love beyond words. But I will save that for Mother’s Day. But today my blog is about not having a strong man to show me how love is suppose to be like. Am I doomed to never know what love is? I have given my heart to men that have never deserved my heart. But was I truly in love if I have never known what love was? Love is more than butterflies in your stomach or feeling happy to see someone. It’s a connection, more than just a connection it’s respect, it’s unconditional, and it’s something worth fighting for I assume. Maybe not knowing how to love is a good thing. A chaotic soul as myself will surely find it easier being alone when you feel no one can truly hold you down. It’s easy to fall in and out of love with men I will never truly give my heart to. It’s easy to love someone far away like on the other side of the country because you will never be with them. Falling in love with their soul is easy but it’s truly never real. It’s easy to feel like it is real for the time because it does feel real but as time moves you know it is not real. In the end you learn it was just a connection you had with someone but never truly loved them. So on this Friday night I wonder will I ever fall in love or learn what that feels like. I guess only time will tell for as the night passes, my mind wanders into the chaos of stars in the sky. As the warm temperatures are high I know one day all my questions will be answered. But on this day, this night I sit in the quiet peace of the chaotic soothing sound of silence. Have a blessed weekend my friends. ~Emma~
Emma the Mizfit 