What food would you say is your specialty?
Specialty food that’s a hard one. I love making chicken with peppers on white rice. I also enjoy making brown rice with veggies. I am really good at making tasty scrambled eggs. Loving trying different recipes and different things. so I can really name one thing but I would definitely like to get to the skill level my mother is at. She cooks everything and it always tastes good.
What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?
Give my heart completely to a man. I have never actually given my heart away. I have liked many and fallen for a few but honestly I have never given my heart to any man.
Who’s gonna tell you when
It’s too late?
Who’s gonna tell you things
Aren’t so great?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
Who’s gonna pick you up
When you fall?
Who’s gonna hang it up
When you call?
Who’s gonna pay attention
To your dreams?
Yeah who’s gonna plug their ears
When you scream?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
(Bye, bye, bye)
Who’s gonna hold you down
When you shake?
Who’s gonna come around
When you break?
You can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong, oh no
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
Oh, you know you can’t go on, thinking
Nothing’s wrong
Who’s gonna drive you home
Tonight?
What are you most proud of in your life?
The day I got baptized and gave my soul to God. It was the best thing I have ever done and the only thing that made me feel absolutely powerful. He not only helped me that day, He also has given me the strength to keep going every single day. No matter the struggle He gives me the strength.
What have you been working on?
I have been working on myself. Trying to learn from my mistakes. Trying to live a healthy lifestyle. Trying to learn how to communicate better. Trying to push myself out of own comfort zones. Learning new coping techniques to try and not keep myself back. Always trying to keep growing to become a version of myself than I was yesterday. Sounds silly I know but it’s the truth. The only way I can find my place in this life is to find myself. For so long I had no idea who I was and I think finally, I am coming to understand who I am and who I want to be. Because there is a difference, I don’t just want to be myself I want to be the best version of myself.
What’s something most people don’t know about you?
What I really am facing each and every single day. They think they know they think they understand but the truth is they have no idea. I won’t share it because it’s pointless because they will never understand nor would they ever truly care to understand. I have family that think they know what I go through they think that. Truth is they don’t and I won’t shatter the illusion they have of me. Let them think what they want. Let them believe what they want. No matter what I do I will never live up to the expectations they have of me. So it’s better to let them live in ignorance because ignorance is bliss and they would rather live there than in reality.
Do lazy days make you feel rested or unproductive?
Well it depends today is a rainy day. On rainy days I feel lazy and without energy. I feel like just sleeping unfortunately I can’t sleep the whole day away. So I will just keep going and do everything I do everyday. Keep moving forward. Have a beautiful day.
When was the first time you really felt like a grown up (if ever)?
When I worked full time to pay car payments, food, clothing, shelter and saw the government take half my paycheck. 🤣
I feel so stupid when we talk. Not because I can’t talk to you but because you make me feel dumb. You say I spin in circles and you are right. I try so hard not to but I am trying to fix that and make it right. I hate the feeling of disappointment I hear in your voice. I hate feeling like no matter what I do you I will never be your choice. I hate that I care. I hate that I become jealous for reasons I can’t explain. I hate that when I talk to you I feel safe. I hate that when I say something you get so mad. I especially hate when you make me laugh. I want to stay mad but can’t. I want to hate you but I can’t. I hate to care and think of you all the time. I know you don’t have feelings but that doesn’t change mine. Lost in the deep sea of reflection. Darkness consuming my mind. Trying to escape in the incoming flood. Lost in the sea of your non existent callous heart. ~Emma~
What would you do if you lost all your possessions?
It’s nice to keep your most treasured possessions, but nothing lasts. In a world where we will all face death one day, our only true possession is our memories. The love we have and the love we shared with others. So for myself the only thing I would hate to lose is my memories.
Emma the Mizfit 