Author: Emma the Mizfit
Life is fragile, words are like swords use them wisely, people will judge, others will hate no matter what you do, and love can only be felt with God. You don't know Love if you don't know God. Be yourself even when the world is trying to change you. Growing doesn't mean you lose yourself to fit in a box the world has created.
bible.com/bible/1/pro.16.27-28.KJVQuotes to live by
Sometimes the people you wanted as a part of your story, are only meant to be chapter in your book. ~Emma~
Each day….
It’s been a hard time lots of sadness, lots of pain. I won’t go into everything it’s just been a really hard time for me. They say God only gives you what He knows you can handle. I question that sometimes but I also realize how far I have come. I am so far from the girl I was five years ago. Though each day is hard I have come a long way. Not alone by any means my mom and family have been there for me. But the one that deserves all the credit is God because even when I felt all alone he never left my side. So even while going through this dark time I hold hope that tomorrow will be a better day. Never give up on hope with each new day new possibilities are always on the horizon. Have a blessed day. ~Emma~
Words to remember….
One of the most important lessons in life is not everyone you love will be there for you when you need them. Adapt, get strong, and keep moving even if that means walking the path alone. ~Emma~
Today…
Some days I just want to give up. Some days I can fight the world.
Some days I just want to be left alone.
Today I wake up with hope that things are going to get better.
Grateful for the blessings and struggles.
Keep fighting the good fight.
Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed.
But today you can make a difference even if tomorrow never comes.
Have a beautiful blessed day.
~Emma~
Hope
My mom fell this week causing my world to tilt. There is nothing more horrifying than watching your mom fall and going to the hospital. I have spent most of the week in deep reflection. It seems this thing we call life is so fragile that even when we think we might be safe from pain we are struck down. So on this Friday night I write this with a heavy heart filled with hope that everything will get better. We must not allow hope to ever escape our minds. The moment we give up hope we have lost. So even as I sit here writing with a bit of fear I know it will get better. Because without hope I have nothing to look forward to. God is my hope, He is my strength and without Him I would be completely lost. So I hope this night you find the hope that keeps you going. Have a beautiful weekend. ~Emma~
Can’t sleep
I am writing this at 4:23 in the morning. I can’t sleep and I am trying hard. It seems even with the medication to make me fall asleep my mind doesn’t seem to want to shut off. Skipping sleep really isn’t an option for me. The more days I go without sleeping the easier for my grip on reality will start to shift. No one ever really knows how easily it is for a bipolar person to slip, it’s the little details such as not sleeping for days. It definitely leads to a spiral. And unless you have dealt with it personally or know someone that has you have no clue. And the truth is most ppl have no clue. I am going to keep trying to use a different coping skill to help me try and relax. Wish me luck. Nite. ~Emma~
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how I am doing…
It has been a very difficult year for me especially the last five months. I did not notice I had gone into a depression until I was in the middle of it. I am working hard with my books and creating content, so I really thought I was fine. It wasn’t till about around my birthday that I realized, I was not just depressed, I was extremely depressed. I have joined group therapy again which is helping me a lot. I am trying some new coping skills to try and change my behavior. The fact that I didn’t even notice I was going through a depression is extremely alarming to me. I can’t afford to allow it to take me over. I spent over 10 years fighting a very dark depression. So, for me being proactive is the only way I can keep myself from falling that deep again. Therapy has always been my go to, coloring, writing, working out all kept me focus. I really thought with the busy schedule, I was doing much better. Now I realized I wasn’t. Why share this? Simple you are not alone. I was so busy trying to focus on the future, what I was doing and how to get there. I wasn’t taking the time to focus on myself. You need to focus on yourself not just work, not just the future and what you want to do. Being proactive when you know you suffer from any mental illness will keep you from losing complete control. It’s important to establish ways to cope and find help when you need it. I made my appointments, told my family and I am going to each session. It is not something I can afford to lose control of, so today I decided to share that with you. Don’t be afraid to fall and seek help when needed. It is not weak to ask for help or find help for yourself. Remember fighting mental illness is a fight that never stops. You wake up, it is part of you and you have to learn to fight it every day. No day will be easy, no day will be lite, each day is worth fighting for. Some people don’t have that battle but it is my battle and if it is your battle don’t give up. You are not alone no matter how many times you feel alone. Keep fighting because each day is worth living. ~~Emma~~
Encouragement
No matter how defeated you feel, it gets better. The circumstances might not change but change how you view the problem. A positive outlook will make it easier to deal with the situation. Learn to lean on God for strength while also trying to find ways to control your view. We can’t control the world but we can control ourselves. Learning good coping skills is the only way forward in a world filled with chaos. Today try to offer a smile to the people you might meet. Offer words of encouragement and hope. You might be the reason they change their view of the world. Have a blessed day. ~~Emma~~
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